I wasn’t
quite sure what we would do on Christmas Eve if Mickey was still in the hospital.
One of us would have to stay with him. In the NICU, he was so tiny, he would
not have known if we were not there, but for sure now, if he woke up in the
middle of the night and we were not there, he would know it. And on Christmas
day, how would we divide our time between the babies at home, our families, and
Mickey. Luckily we didn’t have to figure any of that out. Mickey bounced back
sooner than expected and came home on Christmas Eve.
Mickey has
been in “play” mode since we left the hospital. Suddenly, he has a one track
mind, PLAYING. He does not want to drink his bottles anymore or take naps or go
to bed at night, he would rather keep playing. He is like a little energizer
bunny making up for lost time from being in the hospital I guess? He makes me
dizzy sometimes! Jolynne is very clingy lately. She only wants to be held and
does not really seem to want to play at all. On top of that, she has an ear
infection, so I wish I could say we are all healthy but the babies still
struggle with some kind of bug. We are still trying to keep up with runny noses
and breathing treatments. It is the Christmas gift that keeps on giving
unfortunately. And something we can only give back…to each other. I swear as
many times I have washed the sheets, the toys, disinfected everything, you
would think, we could get over it, but not yet. We are seriously contemplating
going back to a nanny and taking the babies out of day care. It is much harder
on us as it does not allow us as much flexibility. If the nanny is sick, there
is little back up we can count on. If Tommy is traveling and he/she cant work
late or come early, it affects my work schedule, but after Mickey being in the
hospital again and as much money as we have spent on co pays for all of us for
the last 6 months and now another hospital bill to pay for, and as many times
as we have had to stay home with sick babies and cancel important plans with
friends and family, I’m not sure day care is the right place for them anymore.
It was a good option for us when we needed a quick solution, but is it the best
thing for our children? Every time Mickey has a runny nose now, I start to
panic and I can’t sleep at night because I am worried he is getting sick again.
A lot of people told me the babies would be sick for a couple months right
after starting day care and so we expected that and worked through it, but they
have been sick almost non stop since July and I am not sure how much more of it
any of us can handle. I think there are two differences between our babies and
others. #1 – there are 3 of them, so they share everything and it goes back and
forth. It is almost impossible to keep them from passing it back and forth. They
are not in separate play areas in our house. We have to be able to watch all 3
of them at the same time, so keeping them separated is not possible. #2 They
are preemies. There bodies went through a lot there first couple months of life
and they are at higher risk for things like asthma. They are more likely to get
really sick from a common cold than your average baby. I know they will still get sick if they are
not in day care, I cannot shelter them from everything, but I can surely
minimize it while they are still so young.
Even though
the babies have been sick, we still enjoyed the holidays and having everyone
home. Mickey coming home right in time for Christmas was the only gift I
needed. The babies may still be to young to understand Christmas, the meaning
of it, the reason for it, and all the fun family traditions, but to have us all
together under one roof, eating together and playing together, made my heart
complete again. Although it was not the babies first Christmas, for Mickey and
Jolynne, it was their first Christmas at home and so in some ways, this year
was more special than the last.
We finally
got to take our shoe shopping trip and even went to the Sea Life aquarium. My
mom watched the babies for a bit so Tommy and I could go see Les Miz, which was
incredible. I even got to go shopping for myself! Oh the things you take for
granted before having kids! Tonight, to bring in the New Year, we will
celebrate with my mom and keep things low key. I will try to stay up until
midnight, but I admit, I might not make it. I am still trying to catch up on sleep
from the last couple weeks or I’m just getting old…maybe both.
I wish you
all a happy and healthy 2013. 2012 was an adventure, challenging but the best
we have had and I am so grateful for every minute of it. For us, each year just
keeps getting better and better and although we look forward to what the future
holds, we also try to focus on the present moment because no one can predict
the future. 2012 was not a great year for everyone, especially the families and
parents who lost their children and loved ones in December at Sandy Hook Elementary School .
I hope they find peace in time and that in 2013, as a country we can come
together and find a solution to the violence in America . At this point, I think we
have to put aside our stubbornness and differences on gun control and mental
health and just try something different, even if it is not our preference and
see if it helps. If it doesnt, we try something else and we keep trying until something works! We have to do it, for
our children, and for the ones we already lost.
While being sick constantly is a drag, the babies are doing pretty well. 2013 will be easier for us as they get stronger and start to explore the world more.
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